Learning To Love My Life

I am steadily learning to love my life, the one God gave me, the life that he allows me to take another breath each and everyday. I am trying to learn to take nothing for granted and live life to the fullest the best way I know how. I have a pretty amazing life. I have a stable job, dependable car, sufficient money for the things I need, great health and a very loving family, especially very loving, kind and caring parents. I am now nearing 27 years old and when I look back I have A LOT of things to be proud of. I am the first person in my immediate family to graduate from high school with a diploma and then go on to college. Some awful things have happened over the past 2 years but God doesn't promise everyday will be great. There will be bad times and good times. There will be trials and tribulations. I am learning to not let things get to me and to just go with it and not worry. It stresses me out and then it makes me a very un-likable person. 

Oh sometimes I wish I had a better job, better car, a home of my own but I am still making my way and I am working toward financial freedom and getting myself out of debt. I want to be able to make informed decisions and informed purchases and cut up all unnecessary credit cards. Those things can become way out of control way too quickly. I need to be financially stable enough so that when I want to make my first home/land purchase I can do so knowing that I am not having to borrow money to do so. I want to pay of my medical bills from my surgery last year and also pay off a few other debts I have from a previous medical emergency.

I have 3 amazing children in the form of miniature dachshunds and they want nothing but my love which they get plenty of and even on my worst day they can make me feel the best I have ever felt. I know that things are working out just how God has planned and I sometimes am too impatient to wait for his timing. I need to just work more towards letting his will be done and let his timing be done and not worry or stress about when I will meet "Mr. Right" or when I will have my first child or when I will purchase my first home, etc. Things will work out just as planned and there is nothing I can do to change that. 

I have also finally found my inspiration again with digital scrapping and documenting my memories, events and photos again. I had lost all my mojo there for a while but have finally gotten it back. I can say it is nice to know that there are people who actually love your work and want you to create things for them. I'm not expert but I love this form of art and expressing myself through it this way. So you may see a few of my scrap pages posted here soon, as soon as I can get them all gathered and posted. 

Until then, I leave you with this thought - What have you done today to make someone else's day? Just a simple smile can save one person and let them know they matter. Be kind for we know not what battles others are battling for each is different. Ask someone how they are and listen to them, you just might save them. 

Love Always

- Jenn

Journey to Motherhood?

As I sit here & lull over my thoughts from the past oh 6 months to a year, would you like to know what topic filled those thoughts the most? You got it - Becoming a mother! I see all of the beautiful babies & all my friends having babies & pregnant bellies & that desire deep in my heart, just breaks free & there it goes! I know that yes, # 1 - I have no significant other, which I think is needed for this journey! # 2 - Even though that is my deepest desire to become a mother and has been for the past 6 months to a year, the thought of becoming a mother actually scares the crap out of me at the same time.  I am 24 and I can already hear my biological clock ticking.  And most of this thinking I will never, ever become a mother has come from my mother's journey to her having her hysterectomy in July.  After her surgery, her excellent OB/GYN informed her that she had one of the worst cased of endometriosis that he has ever seen and I'm telling you, it was not a pretty site from the pictures!  Knowing this, I am so scared that I will have endometriosis which will make my journey to motherhood that much more difficult, but I have turned this all over and laid it in God's hands and pray about it everyday and know that when the timing is right, I will be blessed beyond measure and only when he sees fit.    

I finally, after much time broke my cycle of depression with lots of help and prayer and am now free to be happy & I deserve to be happy and though I struggle daily with a certain situation that keeps coming back, I know that this happens for a reason and I just move along and deal the best way I can.  

For this I refer to the these 2 verses from the Bible - 

Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your Heart 

Psalms 37:4

For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope & a future.  

Jeremiah 29:11

So when all else fails, pray and in return you will receive the desires of your heart, in due time!

And on that glorious day when I first look into my child's eyes, I will be able to say "I was Enchanted to Meet You"

So this is me, being happy  --

Lots of love

- Jenn

25 Days of CHRISTmas!

Hello dear readers, if you're out there.  Again, it has been a while since my last post.  You may want to know what I have been up to.  I have to say, a whole lot of nothing, but busy all the same.  Thanksgiving just passed and what a great Thanksgiving it was.  I was surrounded by my loving family and friends, so I couldn't have asked for a better one.  Although, I has a rather nasty illness, coughing a lot, chest and sinus congestion, sore throat, runny nose.  You name it, I had it, which made for quite a poor Jennifer over the holiday.  But now, I am starting to get back to my normal self.  Still coughing up a storm, so I may have to make a visit to the ole doctor soon, which I am dreading.  

I am rather excited that CHRISTmas is upon us.  I plan on doing a 25 Days of CHRISTmas for things that I am thankful for and blessed with each day until CHRISTmas.  So, look forward to that.  Today, we had a slight mixture of snow and rain, which was kind of yucky and I can go outside that much, being sick and not wanting to make it worse.  I really love the snow, but hate the cold!  I know, makes perfect sense, right? Haha!  Christmas has always been a special time to me, I have been a very lucky girl and my parents have always, always made Christmas special, whether they had the money to do so or not.  As I get older, I find that the little things are the ones that mean the most and I appreciate them more now.  So, I hope you all have wonderful and blessed days leading to Christmas and remember Jesus is the reason for the season.  I read something today that sparked something rather neat -- There has been only one Christmas, the rest are anniversary's of our Saviors birth!  

Tonight, I am sitting here looking at our White Christmas Tree in awe, as it is one of my favorites things to do.  Just sit and watch the lights twinkle is so amazing and breathtaking.  The bright multicolored lights are just so beautiful! 

I hope you all are well and enjoying life!  What else can we do, we never make it out alive anyways.  Live life to the fullest and do things that are crazy and spontaneous, because one day you may never have the chance and never regret anything it makes us who we are and so long as we learn from our mistakes, that is all that matter!  Who cares what others think, our own opinion is the only one that matters.  Don't lead a boring life, take it by the horns and saddle up and sit back for the ride.  

Much Love,

- Jenn

God Gave Me You

Well, today is Wednesday, August 24, 2011 and it has been a while since I last posted  -- 

Today I had my annual eye examination, which I dislike highly with a passion!  Though, I love getting new glasses, which I did today!  I LOVE them!  I thought about getting contacts, but it has been quite a while, probably oh say, 3 years since I last put a contact in my eye and the thought of retraining myself to use them did not appeal to me! But all in all, my exam went great, not much change in my prescription, so it has not worsened, which is a good thing, for me!  I have an Astigmatism, which stinks and makes my letters / numbers all wonky when I don't have glasses because my eye is not shaped like the natural eye should be.  Which will make my sight, a lot harder as I age.  

Also, I have really been struggling with moving through life and had been in quite a depression for a few months, but things are better now and things are looking up.  I just have to come back to my Faith in God and know that he is in control and will lead me where I need to be.  I am handing over control to him.  

The depression had gotten so bad, not that I wanted to harm myself in anyway, just being down in the pits, moving along as if nothing was happening.  I was stuck and the world and everyone around me was going somewhere and I was stuck in a rut.  

But, I got a new car (which I swore I wouldn't do, for quite some time after paying my other one off), that lasted for a whole SIX months.  I so did not want another car payment, until I had a full-time job, but the car I bought was too good of a deal to pass on.  I am the proud new owner of a 2004 White BMW X3 SUV and I love, love it!  I needed a SUV badly, but am not looking forwards to those payments for the next 2 years.  So, along with that, I am stressed about needing a full-time job, just to help me manage my new car payment / bills better.  I am having to have strict control over how I manage my money and account for everything, when I wasn't anymore since paying the other car off.  

So, I applied for a couple of jobs at another local hospital and am hoping and praying that I get one of those full-time positions, as I need one badly.  So, if you are the praying type, please keep me in your thoughts and prayers, I would greatly appreciate it! 

Also, I know God is making changes in my life and I am finally seeing these changes.  I was looking for something in particular in all the WRONG places and now, I have something that I think will be great.  I am not going to get into it too much, as it is all new and I will keep ya posted.  

I have fell in love with a new song by Blake Shelton - God Gave Me You ...God Gave Me You - Blake Shelton ... Have a listen and I hope it touches you, like it has me.  

I love this verse and keep it posted everywhere on little sticky notes to remind myself of the greatness around me ....

God gave me you for the ups and downs
God gave me you for the days of doubt
For when I think I’ve lost my way
There are no words here left to say, it’s true
God gave me you

Enough from me!  I hope you all enjoy my randomness and feel free to leave me comments!

xoxo - Jenn

To every [thing there is] a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven:

Again, I have been ever so neglectful to my dear blog.

I am sitting here looking out the window and the beauty around me amazes me.  This verse has been in my thoughts here lately and I love, love it!  Though it almost Summer, it is currently 55 degrees here and windy, which makes it so cold!  I went out to walk and check the mail and had to wear a coat!  Seriously!  

How's my life you may ask?  Well, let me just tell you -- Things are great!  I was in a really depressed phased for about the last three months and now, things are much better.  I have lots of things going on and I am making some "big girl" decisions and I would greatly appreciate it, if you would keep me in your thoughts and prayers.  

Mother's Day was a couple of weekends ago and I just have to say, I am sooo Thankful for my mother!  I love her beyond measure and though sometimes, I think I take her for granted.  She has always been there for me and never had judgment on the things I do and is always encouraging me in everything I do.  I worry about her sometimes as daughters do.  I am so blessed that God sent her to me!  We are mother and daughter, but above all we are truly FRIENDS. 

I am making a roast for dinner and it smells every so good and I am starving.  Should you want the recipe, I am in a sharing mood -- So here ya go --

- One roast, cut of your liking (I prefer butt roast or shoulder)

- One bag of carrots (or fresh from the garden)

- About half a bag of Red potatoes (or fresh from the garden)

- Two bags of frozen Pearl Onions

- 1 liter Dr. Pepper

- Seasoning Salt

- Beef Bouillon Cubes

- Salt and Pepper

- Water

Directions:    I use my electric roaster and combine all ingredients.  First, put in the roast meat, sprinkle with seasoning salt and pour over the Dr. Pepper.  Next, add all vegetables (carrots, potatoes and onions).  Add 1 beef bouillon cube, per 1 cup of water you add to cover the meat and veggies. Lastly, add salt and pepper to your liking and roast for about 2 to 3 hours or until your liking.  

Hope you all are having a great day and Enjoy!  

Sincerely,

- Jenn

Neglect ....

So readers, I have neglected you all!  It has been since New Year's since I last posted.  I have been dealing with life and the such.  With that being said ...

Spring is upon us here in the South after months of WINTER that I thought would never be over.  I sit back and look at all the beauty around me and it takes my breath away.  As I post this, I am sitting on my back deck at the patio table with the sun shining and the wind blowing at a wonderful 79 degrees!  I woke up early this morning and came to sit on the deck and haven't been back in the house since.  The South sees some of the beautifulest Springs and I anxiously wait every Winter, counting down the days till it is warm enough to curl up with a good book in the swing.  

My mother and I are taking a mother / daughter trip to the 2010 Vera Bradley Outlet Sale in Fort Wayne, Indiana in the next week - April 11 - 16 and we are beyond ourselves with excitement.  We plan on shopping our hearts out and visiting the Windy City of Chicago and a few other stops along the way.  Please keep us in your thoughts and prayers as we make the 9 hour drive up.  

I am starting a new project of some sort in the next month or so, so stay tuned for it. 

Thanks for stopping by!

- XoXo

- Jenn -

Happy New Year - 2011

Hello dear readers,  I hope you all are having a splendid start to you new year.  So, what resolutions have you made for the new year?  Me - Start Living is my main goal for 2011. Next, would be to actually  finally finish my college degree.  I feel that this year will be better than ever!  I hope you all had a great New Year's day and spent it with the people you love!  

I have not much to say today, just wanting to wish you all a very HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!! 

All my love,

- Jenn

Ho, Ho, Ho .....

Hello everyone!  Sorry it has been so long since I last blogged!  I have been a busy girl.  Readying myself for Christmas!  I am so excited for December 25th to be here!  I am most thankful for Jesus who died so that I may live and be forgiven of my sins!  He is THE REASON FOR THE SEASON!  I just hate it when I see people or hear people, who don't know him.  I mean, seriously, how can you look around and not know that he is there in every little thing you do and every little thing you see, GOD created and he sent his son - JESUS to save us all.  Now, I know some of my readers may not believe in God or Jesus, but I don't disrespect your freedom of speech, when you write things about not believing, so please respect the same freedom for me.  If you don't like reading these types of blog posts, please leave and check back later.  

With all of the season has to bring, I enjoy sitting and watching fall turn to winter and love listening to the stillness of winter.  So, with Christmas approaching, I hope that you have many things to be thankful for and that you remember to take time and actually be thankful for the things you have and its about giving not receiving.  I always love to see the light in everyone's eyes, as they open their gifts.  So, let the magic surround you and may Santa bring you all your heart's desires this Christmas.  

MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

I shall start the new year out, with such a joyful heart and hope that you do too!  

All my love - xoxo

- Jenn

Happy Halloween!

So first off, HAPPY HALLOWEEN everyone!  I hope you have a safe and fun day trick or treating! I just love Halloween so much b/c of all the little cute kids that come trick or treating!  They are so darling!  

"You can't live your life for other people. You've got to do what's right for you, even if it hurts some people you love."

- Nicholas Sparks

If you have never read any of his books, I highly recommend them!

I came across this quote last night and it really struck a cord with me.  I have been going through some major stuff and yes, its hard to deal with but I just need to worry about me and me only.  So, there is this guy whom will remain nameless.  I wandered upon this guy again (we went to high school together) on FB the other day.  Well, low and behold his is friends with my BFF and I have been messaging back and forth over FB about this guy.  I mean, I really, really like him, but just don't want to put myself out there.  Again, really hard to do things I want.  So, I have been talking to her about him, as well as, another girlfriend and they have encouraged me to just go for it.  As Steph said, you will never know how it will turn out unless you don't try.  She told me to try, b/c I never know where it may lead, which hit home and this quote sums it all up for me!  I have to go for it and suppose sometimes you have to write your own destiny! 

I mean, I am so tired of being all alone and feel that my time may never come.  Maybe I am meant to be alone?  Right?  Or this is at least what has been going through my mind lately.  I think this guy could really be great and he seems pretty great and even if it just ends in friendship, that will be great as well.  Oh and he a daughter, which kind of freaks me out.  I mean, yes, I LOVE kids and want them more than anything in the world, but being around one and it not being your child and the mom being in the picture (whom I also know and went to high school with) it really, really freaking me out. 

So, pray for me and keep me in your thoughts in the next few weeks that I muster up enough courage to go for what I want and put myself out there.   I live by the motto -  You have to put yourself out there and do daring things, otherwise, life is boring! 

In other news, I am seriously considering and contemplating weight loss surgery - specifically the Lap Band.  I have tried various diets and exercise and NOTHING has worked.  I need to get this extra weight off and learn to manage it better and as dieting along and exercise (I mean, I was on a strict 5 day a week exercise program of lots of cardio and weights) and lost a few pounds and then it stopped.  SO, just pray that I make the right decision, as this is a life altering decision!  

As always, much love!

- Jenn

xoxo

Tequila and Salt: 11 Things You Should Know

I snagged this from a fellow friends blog and loved it!!

1. There are at least two people in this that you would die for.

2.. At least 15 people in this world  love you in some way.

3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.

4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.

5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.

6. You mean the world to someone.  

7. You are special and unique. 

8. Someone that you don't even know exists loves you.

 

9. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.

10. When you think the world has turned its back on you take another look.

11. Always remember the compliments you received.  Forget about the rude remarks.

And always remember...

when life hands you Lemons,

ask for Tequila and Salt and call me over!

Good friends are like stars.........

You don't always see them,

But you know they are always there..



"Whenever God Closes One Door He Always Opens Another, Even Though

Sometimes It's Hell in the Hallway"



I would rather have one rose and a kind word

from a friend while I'm here

than a whole truck load when I'm gone.


Happiness keeps You Sweet,

Trials keep You Strong,

Sorrows keep You Human,

Failures keeps You Humble,

Success keeps You Glowing,

But Only

God keeps You Going

'Worry looks around, sorry looks back, Faith looks up.'

 

 

Are you Frugal? Do you like free samples? Do you like coupons?

So, my mom found this really amazing site, being the searcher for great coupons that she is!  Well she was on the net looking for some coupons, since we have added 3 more members to the household, the budget for groceries has almost doubled and we need to save every penny that we can!  She found the site afullcup.com, which is a coupon trading / sharing / best deals at all stores site and it is amazing!  Who knew that there were people out there that trade coupons with people from all over the place.

So, onto the point.  We have started clipping coupons and are trying to save as much $$$ as we can.  Last trip to Wal-Mart, we had 16 coupons and saved almost $50.  That is a lot of money if you stop and think about it.  So, we LOVE any coupon for FREE items and this site is really neat, as it lists all the stores sales for the week, coupons on those sale items and where you can find those items and you can create a Wishlist, where the other members can trade coupons that you need for what they need.  Really great stuff! 

We are hoping to start saving lots more money and getting lots more free stuff.  Also, we found the website allyou.com which is the site for All You magazine, which has some amazing deals as well.  Great tips, recipes and such!  Plus they have a daily freebie each day of the month that you can snag.  If you haven't figured it out, my mom and I LOVE, LOVE freebies!  We just signed up for tons of free samples and our mailbox is fixin to be overloaded with goodies! 

Another great site is mysavings.com.  They have a samples page - see sign up for an account and then click on sample tab at top and then click on the NEWEST FREE SAMPLES sub-tab for some great stuff.  I got a full years subscription to Bridal Magazine on here. 

So, if you like saving money and want to be a more frugal shopper check these sites out and if you need more info, you know where to find me! 

XOXO

- Jenn

Still Alive!

I am still here!  Just been a very busy, busy girl lately!  I am working overtime at work and running here and there.  Yes, same old crazy stuff happening here.  Getting ready to start back to school in the winter!  Been thinking lots on where my life is going and what I want more than anything in the world.  Things are pretty good!  I love that the weather here is finally starting to feel like fall weather!  The leaves are changing and there is most always a constant Autumn wind blowing.  My mom and I sat on the front porch today, eating supper, just US ..... no one else and it was quite refreshing.  I love her more than life itself sometimes.  I have been blessed with a wonderful mother, well really, two great parents. 

I changed my room around, as I was tired of the old arrangment!  Thinking of painting it again, but have no clue what color.  Maybe a light yellow, light blue.  It is currently a sea mist green color and quite frankly, I am tired of looking at the color!  Ha!  In other news, I think there is something wrong with my car, as it has been making this weird roaring noise and not driving the same, I can feel a difference.  So, probably gonna have to take it in for a good tune up.  Plus, I need to get my air/heat 1.2.3.4 control fixed, as if I don't I will burn up this winter, b/c it is stuck on 3.  Plus, my 5 CD changer is messed up, with my fav. CD's in it in my trunk and the cartridge will NOT come out!  Plus, a few more odds and ends need fixed.  So, as soon as I get the extra cash .... looks like she will get fixed! 

More to come later!  Just wanted to say  --- I am still here and alive and doing well!  God has blessed me so much!  I sometimes forget to thank him and put all trust in him! 

With Love,

- Jenn

Really, Seriously?

So, you see ..... It is the same old **** happening here at the "Crazy" house again!  Why can't there just be a few weeks without some utter b/s going on.  Seriously, I am so ready to move out and hand over my room, so that my poor mom can get some relief.  I mean seriously, economic times are bad.  We are by far no where near rich, we're not poor either, I guess we are the true "middle" class.  But, when you add 2 people, one of which is lazy and could care less that you are working your ass off to provide for them and the other being a b****y teenager (who could also care less you are providing for her), who thinks the world should evolve around her and if it's not her way, then screw you.  I mean really, I NEVER, not once have ever been that way towards my parents.  I mean do they realize that my parents gave them a place to live, puts food in their mouths, provides transportation for BOTH of them to go to school.  But that's the same old crap happening here. 


As for school, I have decided to go back for Phlebotomy and when I am finished, which is only 2 classes, yes I said 2, I will be done and maybe my dear parents can get some relief.  I mean when my uncle is finished with his GED classes, I so hope they move out, so that we can live a normal life again.  But then again, what am I thinking, as long as he can sponge off my mom, there is NO WAY IN HELL is he going to leave! 


But, AUTUMN weather has arrived and I am so LOVING it!  So, bring on all the Fall'ness!  I am ready to get some great pics of the scenery! 

I Urge You to Adopt a Shelter Pet!

I came across a pet listing on Craigslist.org for a local shelter in the state of GA, but it had a heart breaking story to it!  There are thousands, upon thousands of pets euthanized in the United Statet every day, simply b/c there is no room for them and the shelters are overflowing with stranded animals!  So, I went to this site from Craigslist.org and was outraged at a page I found on this shelters site ...... all of the animal euthanized from this shelter, simply b/c no one wanted them!  Link to site ----  http://www.shelterrescueinc.org/id6.html .    This saddens me so much.  I litterally cried for about 30 minutes while looking at this page.  I just believe that there are so many forgotten animals out there that need us.  Could you imagine your family pet being lost and picked up by a shelter to only be euthanized.  This makes my heart very saddened.  I am a animal lover and have 4 dogs.  So, to see all of these poor defenseless dogs/puppies/cats/kittens killed for no good reason, outrages me! 

So, I ask you, if you are looking to get a pet, PLEASE, PLEASE go to your local animal shelter / pound / animal control and save one of these forgotten angels!  If you need links to a local shelter in your area, please comment me and I will find one for you!  PLEASE save an animal at your local shelter or if you are looking for a good cause to support, I suggest your local Humane Society or event volunteer at a local shelter.  Give anything you can to these shelters.  They simply have to euthanize these animals b/c lack of funding.  If you love animal like me, please find in your heart to do this for a good cause! 

PLEASE ADPOT A SHELTER PET!!!!!!!

Humane Societ of  the US link ----

http://www.humanesociety.org/

Busy, Busy .....

Hi all!  I feel I have neglected this blog lately and I so need to try and keep it up to date!  As for all the happenings, Summer has been such a busy time.  Too much things to do, in too little time!  I have been working more and have added another 4 hour day (Mondays) to my schedule at work, so that bills will be paid of sooner!  I am now working 32 hours a week, still part time!   I have FINALLY decided the route I want to go in school and will be starting Phlebotomy classes in the Fall.  I have to take 1 semester class and then the next semester will be the clinical and I will have my degree.  Only 2 courses to take and I will be done with school, well at least for now anyways!  I really sat down and thought, "Hmm, what do I want to do" and "Quit procrastinating and get on with it, Jennifer".  I am so looking forward to starting anew and being able to buy a home and pay off my car and "maybe" buy a brand new Kia Sorento!  I am sooo tired of my current job and there are lots of changes coming and they are cutting positions like crazy!  I mean, I have a great job, don't get me wrong, just not something I want to do for the rest of my life and at least with Phlebotomy, you are always up and dashing around!  I hate the 4 or 6 hours of sitting with my current job! 


I want to really get this degree over with and start working, so I can start helping my parents out more, with my uncle, grandma and cousin living with them, things have been pretty hard and it would just help out soooo much.  I have wonderful parents!  Especially my mom!  I was talking to her this morning and said "I wish sometimes I had my own place", to which she responded, "Well, if that's what you want, I will help you  get a place and help you out as much as possible", really mom, I love you, but you already do too much and with everyone else living and sucking my parents dry, I would in no way even fathom doing it!  Just, wish I could get away sometimes!  You really don't know how much you enjoy you alone time, until there is NONE!  Someone is always complaining about something or in a bitchy mood or just hateful or ungrateful and sucking people dry or fighting or arguing!  It seems, I am living in the real world now, only which I though was a fantasy as a child! 


On another, more pleasant note, My BFF since birth, Stephanie is blessing me with a niece in December and I am so excited!  I can't wait to hold her in my arms and spoil her!  Steph says it is now my turn to have one, so that they can grow up together like we did.  Slight problem, no male figure and to early for me, even though I want a baby so bad, not in this situation!  Still, I think the sperm bank in the route for me!  I see nothing wrong with it and if "Mr. Right" comes along, then I will be more than happy!  I just sometimes forget who is in control and when he, GOD sees fit for me to have a baby and find the right person, I will be there willingly!  Just, sooner than later, hopefully!  I know his plans are far greater than I could imagine for myself! 


Well, ta ta for now!  Hope you all are well! 


Much Love,

- Jenn

Happy Father's Day!

So, today is officially Father's Day today!  I just want to say Happy Father's Day to my dear Daddy!  I love him so much!  He is pretty great, even though he can make me so mad at times, I am just so grateful to have one!  He means the world to me! 

Also, Happy Father's day to my dear grandpa!  He is amazing and one of the best you will find!  Such a hardworking man!  He indeed has been the best g-pa I could have asked for! 

So, today, take time to give thanks for all the great father's in your life and appreciate them while you have them! 

New post coming soon

Hi everyone!  Just wanted to let you all know that a new post will be coming soon! 




I have been far to busy to update you all on the various ramblings in my life at the moment! 




So, stay tunned and I will have all the juicy details coming later!


Xoxo


<3 Jenn

So, there was this boy

So, there was this boy and I thought that he was great, but the more I talked to him, the more I thought "Is this really what I want".  I mean we got into some deep conversation and it just didn't seem like me.  And I said some thing that I never thought I would be thinking about, right now in my life.   So, needless to say, he is no longer in the picture. 

But, there is this other guy and he is really the one I think I am meant to be with forever.  He has like me since softmore year in highschool, but I was really mean to him and now that I look back, I really think I missed out on a great guy.  But, I am still friend with him and am trying to obtain the courage to tell him how I feel and ask him all these questions that run through my head all DAY and all NIGHT!  He is always there in my mind and I can't get him out of it!  So, I think maybe he was put in my mind constantly for a reason.  And hey you will never know unless you TRY right? 

Anyways, other than that life is pretty peachy at the moment.  Getting ready for summer and vacation!  I LOVE summertimes here.  They can be HOTT as hell sometimes, but pretty much are great!  I need to get my butt back into school so that I can get out of this craziness at work and finally be doing something I love.  My dad keeps telling me I can't be a career college student, but I think  I can ... LOL ... Just kidding.  I am undecided on which major I want to go into and I have to transfer to a college closer to work and home.  It is a much bigger college and on a different schedule.  I don't take to change well, but this one will be okay in the long run.  Plus, the new college closer to home, has a lot of people there / friends I went to school with and it will be great to see them again.  I am such a dragger, but I will finish by 2015, as I have made that my goal.  Sooner, by 2012 preferably. 

Goodnight dear readers and remember No Man Is An Island ....

<3 Jenn

So, there's this boy ....

And he kind of makes my heart sing.  He makes me feel all better, even when I have had the day from Hell!  I think he is my drug and I just can't get him out of my system.  He melts my heart. 

So, I am trying some new things in life.  New adventures and better choices.  I think my life is finally moving in the direction I want it to go.  Now, I know that it so isn't going to go the way I always dreamed of or what I planned, because God has better and brighter plans for me.  But, to think that he knows and I don't is kind of amazing.  I am ready to settle down with the right guy and start a family.  I am finally making my own way in this world and have some major life decisions ahead of me.  I am currently saving every extra penny I make, so that I can number 1, pay of my car in half the time and number 2, build me a house and 3 have emergency money for the unexpected expenses. 

This would not be possible, if not for my wonderful, loving parents.  They have given me everything in life and I will be forever be greatful that God chose to give me these parents.  I want to give back to them in the future for all that thet have done for me.  They are some awesome people.  They have worked very hard to be where they are today.  My mom is an amazing woman and sometimes I think I take her for granted, but she will always be here for me and I hope to always be here for her.  I hope that I can be half the woman/mom she is when I have children of my own someday. 

So, I leave you with this ..... love the ones around you as much and as hard as you can.  If there is a guy out there and he makes your heart sing ... then love him as much as possible and don't be afraid for without love, we have nothing. 

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So, I have had this awful crick in my neck for the last 3 days and it is driving me nuts!  It hurst so bad.  I will take something for it and it will wear off, only to come back at night and I haven't been able to sleep b/c of it hurting so bad.  I hate being couped up in the house all day long, and try to spend as much time outside with the doggie that I can, but it has just been so HOTT lately or RAINY that it is useless.  Plus with there being a housefull of people here, i.e. me, plus the parents, plus my grandma, plus my uncle and plus my cousin - that's right 6 people, you never can find a QUIET moment.  And lately my cousin has been a little witch when she doesn't get her way and on Friday / Saturday I snipped at her b/c she pouts and is a total b***h if heaven forbid you ask her to do something.  I mean its not like she has a hard life - she goes to school and comes home to get on her laptop.  So, I got fed up with it and had had enough and snipped and she got the idea, b/c she asked my mom, was I mad at her - Hello - YEAH! 

Anyways, things are better now.  I just get so tired of cleaning, cooking, people complaining about what I cook, people getting mad b/c you are up and about when they are trying to sleep.  Hello, you are the ones who have uprooted my life.  I try to be as non interferring as possible and spend time to myself reading or being outside, but sometimes, I oh so wish that it was just ME again or me and my parents.  Never take living alone for granted, as you would not want to be living in my house right now.  Plus, everyone is making my mom crazy, as they are dumping all their problems on her w/o comsidering her needs and she just need to be left alone, as she CANNOT handle everything.  Her and my father are working thier asses off to take care of all of us and me working helps them out a lot ... but the others seem to care less that my parents especially, and me are keeping a stable, safe home for them and attending to thier everyday needs.

I wish I could just go away and lay on the beach for a few days and be just me alone! 

So, hope everyone is enjoying themselves and remember God loves you and will work everything out in due time! 

Xoxo

 - Jenn