So, there was this boy

So, there was this boy and I thought that he was great, but the more I talked to him, the more I thought "Is this really what I want".  I mean we got into some deep conversation and it just didn't seem like me.  And I said some thing that I never thought I would be thinking about, right now in my life.   So, needless to say, he is no longer in the picture. 

But, there is this other guy and he is really the one I think I am meant to be with forever.  He has like me since softmore year in highschool, but I was really mean to him and now that I look back, I really think I missed out on a great guy.  But, I am still friend with him and am trying to obtain the courage to tell him how I feel and ask him all these questions that run through my head all DAY and all NIGHT!  He is always there in my mind and I can't get him out of it!  So, I think maybe he was put in my mind constantly for a reason.  And hey you will never know unless you TRY right? 

Anyways, other than that life is pretty peachy at the moment.  Getting ready for summer and vacation!  I LOVE summertimes here.  They can be HOTT as hell sometimes, but pretty much are great!  I need to get my butt back into school so that I can get out of this craziness at work and finally be doing something I love.  My dad keeps telling me I can't be a career college student, but I think  I can ... LOL ... Just kidding.  I am undecided on which major I want to go into and I have to transfer to a college closer to work and home.  It is a much bigger college and on a different schedule.  I don't take to change well, but this one will be okay in the long run.  Plus, the new college closer to home, has a lot of people there / friends I went to school with and it will be great to see them again.  I am such a dragger, but I will finish by 2015, as I have made that my goal.  Sooner, by 2012 preferably. 

Goodnight dear readers and remember No Man Is An Island ....

<3 Jenn

So, there's this boy ....

And he kind of makes my heart sing.  He makes me feel all better, even when I have had the day from Hell!  I think he is my drug and I just can't get him out of my system.  He melts my heart. 

So, I am trying some new things in life.  New adventures and better choices.  I think my life is finally moving in the direction I want it to go.  Now, I know that it so isn't going to go the way I always dreamed of or what I planned, because God has better and brighter plans for me.  But, to think that he knows and I don't is kind of amazing.  I am ready to settle down with the right guy and start a family.  I am finally making my own way in this world and have some major life decisions ahead of me.  I am currently saving every extra penny I make, so that I can number 1, pay of my car in half the time and number 2, build me a house and 3 have emergency money for the unexpected expenses. 

This would not be possible, if not for my wonderful, loving parents.  They have given me everything in life and I will be forever be greatful that God chose to give me these parents.  I want to give back to them in the future for all that thet have done for me.  They are some awesome people.  They have worked very hard to be where they are today.  My mom is an amazing woman and sometimes I think I take her for granted, but she will always be here for me and I hope to always be here for her.  I hope that I can be half the woman/mom she is when I have children of my own someday. 

So, I leave you with this ..... love the ones around you as much and as hard as you can.  If there is a guy out there and he makes your heart sing ... then love him as much as possible and don't be afraid for without love, we have nothing. 

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So, I have had this awful crick in my neck for the last 3 days and it is driving me nuts!  It hurst so bad.  I will take something for it and it will wear off, only to come back at night and I haven't been able to sleep b/c of it hurting so bad.  I hate being couped up in the house all day long, and try to spend as much time outside with the doggie that I can, but it has just been so HOTT lately or RAINY that it is useless.  Plus with there being a housefull of people here, i.e. me, plus the parents, plus my grandma, plus my uncle and plus my cousin - that's right 6 people, you never can find a QUIET moment.  And lately my cousin has been a little witch when she doesn't get her way and on Friday / Saturday I snipped at her b/c she pouts and is a total b***h if heaven forbid you ask her to do something.  I mean its not like she has a hard life - she goes to school and comes home to get on her laptop.  So, I got fed up with it and had had enough and snipped and she got the idea, b/c she asked my mom, was I mad at her - Hello - YEAH! 

Anyways, things are better now.  I just get so tired of cleaning, cooking, people complaining about what I cook, people getting mad b/c you are up and about when they are trying to sleep.  Hello, you are the ones who have uprooted my life.  I try to be as non interferring as possible and spend time to myself reading or being outside, but sometimes, I oh so wish that it was just ME again or me and my parents.  Never take living alone for granted, as you would not want to be living in my house right now.  Plus, everyone is making my mom crazy, as they are dumping all their problems on her w/o comsidering her needs and she just need to be left alone, as she CANNOT handle everything.  Her and my father are working thier asses off to take care of all of us and me working helps them out a lot ... but the others seem to care less that my parents especially, and me are keeping a stable, safe home for them and attending to thier everyday needs.

I wish I could just go away and lay on the beach for a few days and be just me alone! 

So, hope everyone is enjoying themselves and remember God loves you and will work everything out in due time! 

Xoxo

 - Jenn

Letters to Juliet cont.

So, Letters to Juliet was AMAZING!  It was one of the best movies I have seen in quite a while.  Just the thought of waiting 50 years to reunite with you lost love it heartbreaking but exciting at the same time.  This movie really makes you ponder love and taking chances and missed chances.  Amanda Seyfried is an Awesome actress.  Well, and Christoper Egan is so dang HOTT!  To think that those women go to Verona from all over the world to write a letter to Juliet is wonderful!  Verona Italy is so breathtakingly beautiful.  If I could live in paradise for the rest of my life, it would be here.  To think that that is where Romeo meet Juliet and all the love there, is awe inspiring.  To think that there is love out there that strong that you would die for it or search 50 years inside yourself for that love is magical and almost sad at the same time.  So, I say to you, take chances in life, love to the fullest and never be afraid of what others think.  If it makes you happy DO IT!  I have a motto for my life - Live life to the fullest, for you never know when it will be gone and you have to take those chances sometimes.  So, I hope everyone finds there one true love in life and that person makes you the happest you can be!  Never ever give up on love b/c it might just be the thing that saves you, for without it, we are soul less! 

So I leave you to ponder this, have you ever loved and missed out and wished you had taken the chance? 

XoXo

- Jenn

Blog Makeover

Welp, I decided to give my blog a new and refreshed look.  Added some new gadets and widgets.  Gave you some music to listen to!  It makes it all fell better now!

So, Later today we are going to see "Letters To Juliet" .... Can you say soooooooooooo excited.  Hope everyone has had a great weekend! Tomorrow, there is supposed to be more "Severe" thunderstorms.  I need to get to bed, so I can get a little shut eye before the movie!

Letters to Juliet

So, I am soooo excited about going to see Letters to Juliet.  Being that I am off this weekend, I can actually go see it at a reasonable time. 

Work you ask, well it is fine.  They have the nerve to call down and ask me if I wanted to they really could use me this weekend and it would be really great if I could put in some extra time to get us caught up.  Ummm, well it would be realllly great if they could give me that full time position too.  SO, I am just glad my work week is over until Thursday. 

This weekend will probably be a relax at home weekend , which is great, since we are having oh so awesome weather.  There was a breeze tonight when I got off and it was fantastic.  The only thing that could have made it better, is if I were at the beach and the breeze blowing.  Oh well. 

So my grandpa and step grandmonster are leaving for St. Augustine, FL tomorrow and I wish them the best of trip and pray for their safe arrival and hope they have a great time! 

So, I ask you today, if you could write a letter to Juliet, what would you say?

- Jenn

Ramblings on Work

So, I have been working part-time in my current job for almost 2 years now. Recently (last week), a full-time position came open and I told my bosses that I would like to have the job, as it is the same job that I do now, just full-time. I so need this fullt-time job, as of course I am no longer in school at the moment and to be carried on my parents insurance, I have to be a full-time student, so this leaves me with no Medical / Dental insurance, which I so need. I can get vision insurance being part-time but not medical / dental. So, I desperately need this job, 1 for the insurance, 2 for more money, so that I can start saving for future purchaes, i.e., a house, new car and such. It would also help me pay of my current car payment in half the time, as I could make two payments at one time. My car would be paid off by September, which I would so love!

Anyways, it just frustrates me how, they say they need to work quickly and find an "experienced" full-time person to fill the position, when Hello, HERE I AM and I have let them know that I want the job. So, they of course are being slow as to filling the position and we are down one transcriptionist this week, as she is on vacation and the other just quit, finished her last day yesterday. SO, make that 2 transcriptionst down and do they work any faster ? NO.

So, I am just so stressed right now, b/c that job would benefit me so much and help out a lot. The sooner the better. Plus, I would hate to have to start looking elsewhere for a full-time job because I need the benefits and this is something I already know, just going from 20 hours a week to 40.